A quick thought, that I should perhaps spend more time with sometime soon -- I basically write two kinds of fics: the kind I work really really hard on, and try to craft carefully, and the kind that I write for a quick smile, as a little gift. And I think they're probably comparable to, say, a fully-finished piece of artwork and a quick sketch, a doodle. I share my 'doodles' all the time -- the things I write for feywood
when she gets up on time are 'doodles'. There's an opinion I've come across, when getting concrit and from people on my flists, that 'doodles' aren't worth sharing: they're not fully finished shiny products, I don't really expect concrit on them, etc, therefore I shouldn't share them at all.
And yet. I know people enjoy my little 'doodles'. I often get more comments on the 'doodles' than on a completely finished fic. I'm sure I've had more comments on my short Firefly fics than on my 20k, carefully crafted Big Bang fic. They're brain candy for me, writing them, and probably for the people reading them. I don't see why that should be so illegitimate a thing, in fandom. I might not be using my talents to the best of my ability, and my fics might end up a little self-indulgent, here and there, or perhaps (dare I say it) a bit pointless. But people enjoy them. And every single one of them is practice, even if ultimately it's not as shiny and interesting as it could be, because it might find for me an idea that I want to expand, or make me focus on dialogue, or on a strong opening line or ending line.
It's true, really, that I wouldn't publish them. I wouldn't expect, say, Neil Gaiman, to post little snippets of what he's working on while he's still working on it, or his practice pieces, or the things that didn't ultimately work out the way he wanted. That's true. But that's not what edenbound
is for -- edenbound
is an archive of everything I write, as long as I completed it and could stand to let anyone read it at all. It suddenly clicked with me that that's the case, and that I've openly stated that's the case, on the userinfo of the journal, and so people don't really have any right to come into my journal and tell me that I shouldn't post my 'doodles'. Which people have.
(It would be different, on a comm. I only post things to comms when I think they're worth spreading to a wider audience. And my Archive of Our Own account is the same thing.)
So I've just now realised that it's okay for me to write 'doodles', and to post them, because I know people are interested and enjoy them. And that I shouldn't feel slightly ashamed of it, because if you've friended that journal you can check the userinfo to see that that's what it may sometimes contain.
I can use my own ficjournal the way I want. What a revelation.