Musing: tv - How I fail at watching Supernatural

Okay. This is ridiculous. I need to catch up with Supernatural S5. There are three problems with this.

a) I'm not sure I'll have the time, once I've finished watching Merlin. Exam/essay-time coming up.
b) The more I avoid watching it, though, the more reluctant I am to catch up, because after each episode everyone says it will break my heart.
c) I am terrible at watching things without pausing. I regularly get too embarrassed for the characters, or too upset, or just too damn wriggly. I paused in the middle of Free to be Me and You, the day after it first aired, and I never unpaused.

There is possibly also:

d) If there are gross/frightening/upsetting parts, I won't be able to watch it when alone in my flat because it may increase my anxiety.

But I think I'll take that as it comes.

Help? Give me incentives? Tell me how awesome it is and promise that Kripke will heal me as much as he hurts me (ha, ha, not likely)? Help!